Fmylife.

For some reason i always tend to forget just how much my mother doesnt like me.
well she deffinately doesnt want me as her daughter.
she adds me to her new facebook page.
one day later she calls me bitching.
after writting all over my wall.
how much she wants to get my face
and updates off of her page.
im her only friend.
they were status messages alot of them old.
and they were not my doing.[putting them on her page]
she bitched and told me to delete her so i would "go away"
way to make me feel loved mom. way to go.
fmylife.

Doctor.

So ive been doing alot of thinking and im ready to go back to school.
get my G.E.D.and go to collage. go to medical school spend ten years
becomming a doctor. even longer if i have to to become what i want.
to make myself and my family proud.
i dont want to not do it. i dont want to keep putting it off.
im already half way through my 21st year.
i should have done this sooner.
but now ive got my head on straight
& ive always wanted this.
now i just have to figure out a way. and i will.
I want it. the late exhusting hrs. the blood. the yuck. the scrubs. all of it.

Finally.

Finally I think the dramatics have calmed down enough to write a blog.
God i hope that they have. Im honestly tired of ignorance & stupidity
.
Stuart and I have been fighting because of it and other things for weeks.
I dont know if we are going to work ourselves out of it this time.
would be nice, i would really hate to think ive wasted another almost 2years
in another failing relationship.

Cassidy is going to have Ayden soon, next month.[Cass 6 1/2months with Ayden]


so i am going to town for the birth. and visiting friends and family.
i dont know how long i will be there yet, maybe 3wks. maybe a month.
i kind of would like to my niece's and nephew for halloween.
since we wont have Addison.
[mother-in-law since i dont know when i'll be back yet]

Anyhow.there isnt much to update on.
Im looking forward to the cool weather.
and currently im watching lifetime movies. oh joy.
i should probably clean, but im still tired.