Jan. 15th 2010.

Today has been 8months since my last miscarriage and i still think about it.

Today is my Dad's birthday. i miss my Dad and the rest of my family and home alot sometimes.
Today my nephew Ayden is 3months. i remember when Addison was 3months so clearly. its flies by so darn fast. :/

So we are looking for a bigger place, but it'll be an apartment, a two bdrm.
we are suppossed to go look at this comming week. im really hoping its what we are looking for because i'd like to get the heck outta here, very soon. money will be tight but hey its do-able.

we can deffinately make it work, for our family. Addison needs more room than this place has to run around and play. and so do we. its so darn cramped here. i cant keep anything organized because theres no-where left to put it.
we need to find cheap furniture thou. considering we wont have any when we move there.

a friend of mine sent me a few outfits for addison because money is so tight and Addi needs new clothes. so she just went out and bought her some. must be nice to not have to worry about money like that, it was very nice of her thou. she sent them out yesterday, so i hope by monday they'll be here. :]

im making ranch chicken tonight as per request of stuart, i need to get up and get things done thou.

2010

Well here it is 2010 & we are already behind on bills. oh joy. :/
Stuart and I have been doing pretty well, both happy and healthy. just ready to get outta here and get a home.

we are however thinking of getting the hell outta here and getting a house or something. we are going to go look at some and see what we can afford.
The apartment situation is getting old. tired of the people here. the management.
we need something bigger anyhow. Addison needs her own room and i'd like a 3bdrm but i guesss a 2bdrm will be fine.

Addison is 21 months now, just 3months until she's 2, its so crazy, I can't believe it, she was so tiny when she was born & now she's gotten so big. Her hair is getting long & curly.ah makes me wish shed slow down.

we got a new kitten, Bentley, very cute.

Anyways. Christmas was great, new yrs was fun. Its a new yrs & decade,I'm gunna make it great, I'm not taking anyone's crap anymore & leaving all drama behind me, I'm going to focus on my family, & myself.

I went to the dentist on the 30th and he didnt do anything, told me it needed to be pulled but refused to help me. because he thinks i have a 'habbit' because my teeth are so bad. he can fuck off, im clean and have been a really long time. jerk.!


Today i have got to go drive into town to go to walmart and get groceries, clean the dishes still and take a shower, at least ive already cleaned out the fridge but i better get off here and get on it because ive been going so slow and ive only go an hr before stuart gets home.




some new photos. :]







Addison steals shoes. lol cute.!
see Bella, Addi's got a shoe addiction already, next the shopping addiction starts, hah.


Addison loves Barney these days, and her feet which she was grabbing in this photo.
Barney, Mickey Mouse, Legos/ Blocks, Cars(the movie) and books being read to her are her favorite. shes so sweet. :]


Addison and her Barney :]



(For some reason the photos arent posting so well on here, it always does that to me.)

Bentley Mercades Salmon