Happy 2nd Birthday Babygirl: Dear Addison;

My Beautiful Daughter:

I cant believe that today marks two years since the most beautiful child on earth entered my life.
I cant believe that you're already turning two years old,
these past two years with you in my world have been unforgetable,amazing
You're the most wonderful gift ive ever been given.

You were born on Wednesday April 2nd 2008.
at 11:47am. weighing in at: 6lbs 6oz and 20inches long.
you were perfect and healthy.
born with dark brown hair and blue eyes.
the most beautiful little baby, i have EVER seen.

i could not ask for anything more.
I love you, addison, more than anything.and so does your daddy.
Right now i selfishly want nothing more than to hold you
and keep you a baby forever,
but i know that its impossible and you're going to grow up.
I wish you would slow down. you're growing up SO fast, growing into a
beautiful, intelligent, wonderful, amazing child. Addison you amaze me.


As much as i'd like you to stay a baby
You're turning into a very sweet,kind, loving,BEAUTIFUL little girl
with blonde hair and curls at the ends.
and bright big blue eyes. and a sparkling personality to match.
right now, you like disney movies and minnie mouse.and barney.
legos,books, and animals.(ducks, cats, dogs, birds.) :]
I am looking forward to you growing up
and i cannot wait to see who you turn into.

You are the reason i push harder every day for a better life.
You've made me into a better person. You've made me a mother.
&There isnt anything in this world you could do to make me not love you.
My love is constant, unbreakable.unconditional.i promise.

I would give anything for your happiness and well being. I would do anything for you babygirl.
I love you more than life itself and you will always come first with me.

The hopes and dreams i had for my life, dont seem to matter as much anymore.
i am perfectly content with hoping and dreaming for you. i want you to have an amazing life.
I want you to know that you're loved and supported to the ends of the universe
and That nothing is beyound your grasp. you can do or be anything you want.
and so many people love you Addison, so many people want nothing more for you
than for you to be happy in this life.
and i will do whatever i can to make that happen for you.
You're most certainly worth it. everything.

Addison, You wont understand this now, but i'll say it anyway.
Just remember that life can get hard at times.
But you will always have love and support to fall back on.
Never give up on your dreams sweet daughter,i know it may be difficult,
but it will always be worth it.
You have no idea how proud i am of you already, and you're only 2.
You can always come to me and your dad about any problem you may have,
and we will do our best to fix it. we love you more than we could ever explain.

oh.and Happy Second Birthday Baby.

February Photo Update.

officially 22.

Today I turned 22.
Man, I feel old.
I've got to make my own cake. :p

We are officially moved into our new place, its awesome.!
Stuart is doing well at work.
Addison is doing well too, 22months & brilliant. :D
I just updated her closet. I bought alot of the clothes from Khols that I liked for her.
&some from the thrift store too. :)
I bought myself some new make-up.
& Stuart got a new video game, he brought me Mario Kart for Wii.
For our anniversary we went to Olive Garden. We shared chocolate moouse cake.

I went out of town from the 11th-17th.My PawPaw is pretty ill,
I wanted to see him, get pictures& video, spend time with him
Incase something does happen to him. :(

I saw Brandi while I was in town for a few hrs too.
I spent some time with Cassidy & Ayden. He's already 4 months
& Chloe she's 7 now & sooo sassy.
Saw a few more friends too.

I had an early birthday with my parents & Mema.
& spent some time with my brother at the barn.

Jan. 15th 2010.

Today has been 8months since my last miscarriage and i still think about it.

Today is my Dad's birthday. i miss my Dad and the rest of my family and home alot sometimes.
Today my nephew Ayden is 3months. i remember when Addison was 3months so clearly. its flies by so darn fast. :/

So we are looking for a bigger place, but it'll be an apartment, a two bdrm.
we are suppossed to go look at this comming week. im really hoping its what we are looking for because i'd like to get the heck outta here, very soon. money will be tight but hey its do-able.

we can deffinately make it work, for our family. Addison needs more room than this place has to run around and play. and so do we. its so darn cramped here. i cant keep anything organized because theres no-where left to put it.
we need to find cheap furniture thou. considering we wont have any when we move there.

a friend of mine sent me a few outfits for addison because money is so tight and Addi needs new clothes. so she just went out and bought her some. must be nice to not have to worry about money like that, it was very nice of her thou. she sent them out yesterday, so i hope by monday they'll be here. :]

im making ranch chicken tonight as per request of stuart, i need to get up and get things done thou.

2010

Well here it is 2010 & we are already behind on bills. oh joy. :/
Stuart and I have been doing pretty well, both happy and healthy. just ready to get outta here and get a home.

we are however thinking of getting the hell outta here and getting a house or something. we are going to go look at some and see what we can afford.
The apartment situation is getting old. tired of the people here. the management.
we need something bigger anyhow. Addison needs her own room and i'd like a 3bdrm but i guesss a 2bdrm will be fine.

Addison is 21 months now, just 3months until she's 2, its so crazy, I can't believe it, she was so tiny when she was born & now she's gotten so big. Her hair is getting long & curly.ah makes me wish shed slow down.

we got a new kitten, Bentley, very cute.

Anyways. Christmas was great, new yrs was fun. Its a new yrs & decade,I'm gunna make it great, I'm not taking anyone's crap anymore & leaving all drama behind me, I'm going to focus on my family, & myself.

I went to the dentist on the 30th and he didnt do anything, told me it needed to be pulled but refused to help me. because he thinks i have a 'habbit' because my teeth are so bad. he can fuck off, im clean and have been a really long time. jerk.!


Today i have got to go drive into town to go to walmart and get groceries, clean the dishes still and take a shower, at least ive already cleaned out the fridge but i better get off here and get on it because ive been going so slow and ive only go an hr before stuart gets home.




some new photos. :]







Addison steals shoes. lol cute.!
see Bella, Addi's got a shoe addiction already, next the shopping addiction starts, hah.


Addison loves Barney these days, and her feet which she was grabbing in this photo.
Barney, Mickey Mouse, Legos/ Blocks, Cars(the movie) and books being read to her are her favorite. shes so sweet. :]


Addison and her Barney :]



(For some reason the photos arent posting so well on here, it always does that to me.)

Bentley Mercades Salmon

Nearing the end of '09 ((12.18.09))

So the year is nearing to an end, and christmas is just 7days away.
Stuart and I have been getting this ready and It'll be Addison's 2nd Christmas.


I cant believe its almost christmas, this yr has just flown by.
it seems like just yesterday Addison turned one
and now shes 20months old,
well on her way out of babyhood and into toddlerville.
shes growing up so fast :]
she's getting very smart,
blonde hair, blue eyes,
and the most beautiful smile. My Sunshine.!
i love her. she's got this minnie mouse she carries around now. its almost as big as she is, but she luggs it around anyhow. its kinda funny. its like her baby. lol
she's getting so smart, its amazing,
shes got such personality, deffinately a little charmer. its sooo cute. :]
she loves animals,&
shes very gentle with them. she's a good little girl, im proud of her. :]


I have got to lose this weight before we can even think to try for another.
we miscarried in May(the 15th), so now im on birthcontrol pills (Loestrin 24fe) to prevent.

He failed his brake test by 2,
its the 2nd time he's taken it. which sucks. its a hard test but,
i just think he gets too nervous before taking it, because he knows the stuff.
But it sucks because he cant move up in his job without passing it, and moving up would mean better money.
and he's ready to get a house and get out of an apartment. its getting pretty cramped in here[its a small apartment]


We got snow this yr, it was nice. had it for a few days. veryyy cold. :p

Photos:

Update. 11.24.09

So im going to update, i hardly ever update anymore, I still have to go thanksgiving shopping, But we arent going until wednesday night and i really hope they arent sold out, Im dreading going and things being sold out. I really would like to cook all out this yr. But considering ive never made a turkey or anything yet i'd like to do it this yr. It'll be our 2nd thanksgiving together and we're finally doing pretty well right now. He's been looking at jewelry for christmas. & Being really sweet to me. Its nice. He keeps telling me im great and beautiful and stuff. :)

Christmas.
Im really ready for Christmas already, ready to decorate, the tree, ready to shop. :]

Then New Years is comming. :) and last yr i didnt get to ring it in with him because we had seperated,so i rang it in with with Stace and the girls.

Then Valentines Day is comming.
Our two yr anniversary,
and Then my 22nd birthday.
& His 21st birthday
and Then Addison's 2nd Birthday.


akk, i love my life. :)


Addison Fae: :]


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Stuart Wayne:


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Cassidy Renae:


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Ayden John :
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Christopher James
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Mom




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Dad


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(& They didnt match up right with names & dates, the photos. but its ok)